The Unseen Weight of Emptiness

Have you ever felt a weird emptiness that seems to linger within, like a quiet storm with no apparent origin? It’s a strange sensation that goes beyond logic and defies easy explanation. In these moments, we become reluctant spectators in our lives, struggling with a void that defies definition.

I am writing this article while going through one of these moments; it has been living with me for days now. Over the years I have gotten used to it. I am writing this article not because I need help (maybe I do, can’t know for sure 😅), but to let others who may be experiencing this feeling for the first time or first few times know that they are not alone and that it is okay; everything will be fine. I wish I had someone to tell me this a few years ago. I was lucky enough to have a wonderful family and wonderful friends whose mere presence helped me navigate through these hard moments of self-doubt. If you are living in one of them now, be sure that things will be fine and you are not the only one feeling this emptiness.

The uninvited guest of emptiness likes to bring its team with him — a quiet sadness and a feeling of being adrift in a sea of emotions. It’s as if a subtle shadow follows us, whispering tales of inadequacy and unworthiness, casting doubt on our very essence.

These feelings, for whatever reason, get woven into the very fabric of who we are, giving our experiences a sombre tint. Many people struggle silently with it and find it difficult to express. The void turns into a burden we bear, and the emptiness becomes a weight we carry, even though its source is still unknown.

One of the most crucial feelings that come with this emptiness, in my case, is the feeling of unworthiness and being a loser. People see me as a successful engineer, successful student, successful teacher, and successful person, but all I see when I am in the middle of this storm of emptiness is a losing engineer, a losing student, a losing teacher and a losing person.

as I have already mentioned at the beginning, I learned how to deal with these feelings, and how to go through this emptiness Maybe the next step is to learn how to avoid this emptiness, but it has become kind of a part of me. I am not even sure if I want it gone forever.

Back to the reason I am writing these words, it’s not about me; it’s about you. If you are having such feelings, first, you should know that you are not the only one experiencing this feeling of emptiness and unexplained sadness. Navigating these emotions requires patience and self-compassion. It’s about embracing the ebb and flow of emotions, understanding that the emptiness doesn’t define you, it’s a passing cloud, and beneath it, your worth remains intact.

Consider changing your daily routine, doing something you didn’t do for some time or something you have always wanted to do and have been delaying. Go out with friends and reach out to those who lend a compassionate ear; sometimes, external perspectives can illuminate paths we might not see on our own.

Remember, the journey to understanding and overcoming this emptiness is a process that, with time, can uncover resilience and inner strength. These moments are nothing but threads contributing to the mosaic of our experiences. Embrace them, acknowledge them, and in doing so, find the power to transform the emptiness, the sadness, and the unworthiness into a way of self-discovery and growth.

You are not defined by the void within, you are a resilient soul navigating the adventure of the human experience.